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We live in a culture that has embraced the concept of “self” quite well! We are taught that if we have high self esteem that high self esteem will remedy our personal and ultimately most of our collective ills. Modern popular psychology since the late ’70’s/early ’80’s coined this term to define one’s own self concept and to provide an explanation for a lack of confidence, worth and assurance that one should have according to the world’s standards. The explanation of high self esteem and methods on how one could build self esteem in themselves and others was provided as a solution to societal ills. I have been sent to offer a more sound solution, one that will never be acknowledged in the journals of psychology. The awareness and concept of self is a matter of perception but the solution that this world deems as effective has proven nothing short of detrimental to an entire generation of people. For all of the talk of building self esteem and self worth; for ALL of the support groups, methods of teaching and concepts built around the concept of building one’s self esteem and one’s self worth it would seem that most of the issues that we have linked to self esteem and self worth such as crime, peer pressure, sexual immorality, health issues right down to our relationships with others would have laid the foundations for a society of people who are healthier in every respect of their lives. But the contrary has occurred, if self esteem was the remedy we should have more stable homes, men would be better husbands and fathers; women would be better wives and mothers there would subsequently be fewer divorces and broken homes, fewer conflicts between parents and children and the church would be a more peaceful, cooperative place to worship. But several decades have passed and things are actually worse!

This is the official psychological definition of self concept
-The self concept is how we think about and evaluate ourselves. To be aware of oneself is to have a concept of oneself.

The term self-concept is a general term used to refer to how someone thinks about or perceives themselves. It is an important term for both social psychology and humanism.

LOW SELF ESTEEM i.e. we have a negative view of ourselves. This tends to lead to

Lack of confidence
Want to be/look like someone else
Always worrying what others might think
HIGH SELF ESTEEM i.e. we have a positive view of ourselves. This tends to lead to

Confidence in our own abilities
Self acceptance
Not worrying about what others think
These definitions seem on point but this is a highly flawed concept as it makes it appear as if to be confident in one’s own abilities and acceptant of one’s own sinful nature, if we are in fact to even view our nature as sinful, should be accepted. The Apostle Shaul in Romans 7:18 says, “For I know that in me (that is, in my flesh) dwelleth no good thing; for to will is present with me; but how to perform that which is good, I find not.” Believers need to be more aware of YAHWEH than they are of themselves and the only healthy concept of self, originates from a clear, well-defined identity in YAHWEH.
The challenge is not to esteem self neither is it whether or not we need to be self confident or have a healthy self concept; from the outset those things seem to provide suitable solutions except that we have A Maker of whom we are accountable and to whom we must ultimately yield or face eternal damnation. It is important that we see ourselves as YAHWEH sees us, no more and no less! I would like to submit to you that the answer is not whether we should esteem our selves or be confident in who we are as we, individually or collectively cannot provide the effective solutions, healing and deliverance via ourselves outside of YAHWEH. When we attempt as Believers to apply such carnal concepts to our lives, we eliminate the need for YAHWEH to rule and reign sovereign in our lives. Messiah tells us in Matthew 22:39 to love our neighbors as we love ourselves. We are able to provide that love as we understand that YAHWEH loves us, affirms and validates us and it is in HIM and HIM alone that we find our worth. Our worth is only as high as we value our role individually and collectively to the Kingdom as things that are not of worth to the Kingdom, YAH’s kingdom are nothing more than a waste of time and an act of futility. Our very lives are a waste of time and an act of futility, absolutely meaningless without HIM! Romans 12:1-3 I beseech you therefore, brethren, by the mercies of God, that ye present your bodies a living sacrifice, holy, acceptable unto God, which is your reasonable service. And be not conformed to this world: but be ye transformed by the renewing of your mind, that ye may prove what is that good, and acceptable, and perfect, will of God. For I say, through the grace given unto me, to every man that is among you, not to think of himself more highly than he ought to think; but to think soberly, according as God hath dealt to every man the measure of faith. Esteeming YAHWEH provides for us a grounded, solid foundation that allows us to understand our place in HIM so that there is no need for jealousy, envy, competition or coveteous behavior because of someone else’s calling, assignment or blessing.

Believers are called to be self effacing which means to be modest, not drawing attention to oneself. None of the prophets, disciples or early apostles ever sought to esteem themselves, they knew that their identity had to be wrapped up in YAHWEH because the tasks that they were assigned to was much too formidable for them to perform in their own strength, esteeming who they were. Am I saying that we should not have a healthy concept of who we are? Certainly not but the Believer’s identity is enveloped in the greatness of who YAHWEH is through us not in who we are and what we believe that we can accomplish in our own strength. Self effacing people are actually thought to have greater confidence because they don’t need outward adulation, validation and affirmation to give them the confidence needed to be productive, effective people. Self effacing people, self effacing Believers are secure enough in who YAHWEH made them and what they are assigned to do and YAHWEH’s ability to perform and complete through them what HE has revealed and confirmed that HE would do so much so that they are not threatened or coveting or envious of anyone elses blessing, calling or position. They can root for, encourage and cheer you on knowing that it does not detract from them and their calling or blessing, in the least because the greater goal is not one’s own self or will but the goal is building YAH’s kingdom. If you do not know or are not sure of what your assignment is then it’s more than likely because you are not in your position. If you are jealous or coveting someone elses gift, blessing or assignment, it can more than likely be attributed to your lack of established identity and reality in YAHWEH. Every Believer has a role to play, a position to fill. When you allow YAHWEH to consume your life, HE will reveal HIS purpose and HIS plan for you and that is paramount as HIS will, plan and purpose for you is ALL that matters!

Let nothing be done through strife or vainglory; but in lowliness of mind let each esteem others better than themselves. Philippians 2:3

Our agenda, plans, motivations and inclinations that originate from a need to build self esteem and not esteem YAHWEH are of NO value to YAH’s kingdom. In fact self esteem at it’s humanistic core seeks to make a god out of the individual. Self esteem seeks a validation, notoriety or dare I say, fame for being who you are and doing what you do. These are foundational principals that are not of YAH’s kingdom but of the luciferian concepts of this world that call upon us to seek our own godhood over surrendering ourselves to a holy and almighty YAHWEH who knows us better than we know ourselves and desires for us far better things than we could ever even desire for ourselves. If no one remembers our names or titles, we should impact their lives enough that they will remember YAHWEH operating in and through us. We are a conduit and vessel that HE desires to perform HIS greatest works but HE wants us to humble ourselves, efface ourselves (Make oneself modestly insignificant or inconspicuous) so that HE gets the glory as HE proclaims in Scripture that HE will not share HIS glory with ANY man (Isaiah 42:8 and Isaiah 48:11).
Humble yourselves therefore under the mighty hand of YAHWEH, that he may exalt you in due time I Peter 5:6

Humble yourselves in the sight of the YAHWEH, and he shall lift you up. James 4:10

For whosoever exalteth himself shall be abased; and he that humbleth himself shall be exalted. Luke 14:10

YAH can give us grace when we humble ourselves but HE can do nothing but resist us when we are proud (Proverbs 3:34, James 4:6, I Peter 5:5) because pride always has it’s own agenda and it’s own desire to exalt the will of flesh over the will and way of YAHWEH, pride is therefore at the root of ALL sin and is actually not only a sin but it is referred to in Scripture (Proverbs 16:5) as an abomination! When people think of abominations they immediately think of sexual perversions such as sodomy and the like and while those things are abominations, pride is the abomination that leads to ALL other abominations! Pride caused Lucifer to esteem himself rather than YAHWEH to the extent that HE thought that HE should overthrow YAH’s kingdom in order to assert HIS own will and usurp YAH’s authority. That is no different than what we do everytime we refuse to surrender to HIS WILL! Nothing else matters outside of HIS WILL! NOTHING outside of HIS will is of any value to HIS KINGDOM. So every proclivity, notion, agenda, will, motivation and desire that we have that seeks to make what we want of greater significance than YAH’s will is a luciferian, idolatrous act and will put us at odds with YAHWEH and gives the enemy access to our lives. Pride is a set up! Pride is the leaven of the Pharisees that YAHSHUA warned HIS disciples to avoid. (Matthew 16) It is this very pride that caused the Pharisees to reject YAHSHUA and make Torah a burden by giving greater significance to the oral law or talmud.

We must abandon ALL that we are and ALL that we think we know to know YAHWEH! There is nothing that exists outside of HIM and HIS kingdom that is of value to us as HIS people. Every blessing and everything that we need is in HIM! HE is El Shaddai the ALL sufficient EL! Nothing of our flesh or of this world will fulfill us and if we seek after things that pander to our flesh and are patterned after this dark world no matter how positive they may seem, we will always end up lacking. But YAH’s desire is to fill us with the fullness of HIS grace so that every good plan that HE has for us will come to pass. But we must be willing to give up our “rights” to ourselves; the right that we have to protect ourselves, defend ourselves, save ourselves and deliver ourselves, because nothing we can do will ever be able to produce in us what HE can! When was the last time, if ever, have we asked YAHWEH, “How can I better serve YOU?” OR “How can I please YOU more?” This requires complete submission to The Ruach and submission to the process of sanctification which includes you dying to yourself, mortifying your flesh so that your heart is regenerated and you are transformed by the renewing of your mind and can take on the mind of YAHSHUA so that you can look and live more like HIM. When this transformation occurs serving YAHWEH maybe challenging but we will not perceive it to be an insurmountable, weighty task. We will through the lens of an humble heart and a submitted and committed mind realize that though the task is too great and insurmountable for us to take on in our own strength it is therefore important for us to submit to YAH’s authority so that the tasks and assignment ahead can be accomplished, to HIS glory, in HIS strength because that is the ONLY way that it can be successfully accomplished. The Apostle Shaul in Philippians 4:6-13 states,
Fret not about anything, but in everything, by prayer and supplication with thanksgiving, let your requests be made known unto God. And the peace of God, which passeth all understanding, shall keep your hearts and minds through Christ Jesus. Finally, brethren, whatsoever things are true, whatsoever things are honest, whatsoever things are just, whatsoever things are pure, whatsoever things are lovely, whatsoever things are of good report, if there be any virtue and if there be any praise, think on these things. Those things which ye have both learned and received and heard and seen in me, do; and the God of peace shall be with you. Not that I speak in respect to want, for I have learned in whatsoever state I am, therewith to be content. I know both how to be abased, and I know how to abound. Everywhere and in all things I am instructed both to be full and to be hungry, both to abound and to suffer need. I can do all things through Messiah who strengthens me. This should be the goal of EVERY Believer, to allow YAHWEH to use us to make HIM famous and the only way we can successfully do that is to submit to HIS will and esteem HIM. HE said in John 12:32, “I, if I be lifted up from the earth, will draw all men unto me.” If you are busy trying to lift you up and draw people to you, when will you ever have time to lift up YAH and draw people to HIS Kingdom? And if you have any apprehensions, please consider the consequences that being outside of HIS will presents! Even when you don’t understand praise HIM! When you have been torn down, exalt HIM and HE promises to lift you up! Love, then love some more because the love of YAHWEH in us will never cause us to be in lack for love! Encourage yourself in HIM because if you were of no worth to HIS kingdom, HE wouldn’t have given such a great sacrifice as HIS own life so that you could be victorious and free from slavery to your flesh! You are HIS child and you are precious to HIM. We can be our own worst enemy because we refuse HIS will and insist on being slaves to our flesh! I John 2:16 For all that is in the world, the lust of the flesh, and the lust of the eyes, and the pride of life, is not of the Father, but is of the world!

There will be no true peace outside of HIS will. There will be no true joy outside of HIS will. There is NO real life outside of HIS kingdom! For everything that attempts to undermine and subvert HIS will and authority, will ultimately like Lucifer, be destroyed. But everything of YAH’s kingdom is eternal! Let us esteem YAHWEH so that we will be known of HIM and legitimately named as citizens of HIS KINGDOM!

Submit yourselves therefore to YAHWEH. Resist the devil, and he will flee from you. Draw near to YAHWEH, and HE will draw near to you. Cleanse your hands, you sinners; and purify your hearts, you double-minded. James 4:7-8

Todah to YAH’s talmidim! Shalom!



In this last age, the people of YAHWEH are facing many disgusting spirits and yes, they are spirits as Ephesians 6:12 clearly defines for us. For we wrestle not against flesh and blood, but against principalities, against powers, against the rulers of the darkness of this world, against spiritual wickedness in high places. So despite the fact that these foul spirits inhabit an actual person who has in essence given themselves over to be inhabited by such obscene spirits, we are not fighting people! This is important to preface as all too often people waste precious time and energy fighting people instead of fighting the spirit that is inhabiting the person and the atmosphere. The modern church has become a gross perversion and an aberration that has estranged itself from it’s true Messiah, YAHSHUA and has placed a greco-roman counterfeit in HIS place. Due to this ridiculous perversion, most Believers are under attack on a constant basis and they don’t even know or fully understand why their families, homes, finances, and other aspects of their lives are being assaulted. They fast, pray, read Scripture but there is still this relentless struggle that is attempting to wear out many of the saints. One of the most horrible vehicle of attack is the nicolaitan structure of the modern church that was born out of the womb of the mystery babylon institution of catholicism. This particular model of church hierarchy in leadership has brought forth the ultimate, most consuming problem of churchianity.

The above is a depiction of the catholic and even most protestant organizations, even if the head person in charge is not called a priest but a pastor or bishop. This model is not what YAHSHUA intended the church to become! This model is nothing like the first Messianic congregation in the Book of Acts. It helps to view this reality through the lens of the time and place of the first “church” Apostle Paul and the other apostles of the early church traveled and they were not leaders in the tradition of the pagan priests of the many pagan religious organizations of that age and because they were Hebrew, (remember the early disciples who became apostles were Jewish as was YAHSHUA), with this in mind they did not even lead the first Messianic congregations the way the Scribes, Pharisees and other religious leaders ran the synagogues by “lording” over the people. The first apostles traveled from city to city, province to province, country to country taking the gospel to as many of The children of Israel as they could and when YAHWEH released them to carry the gospel to the gentiles that they may become grafted in to the *Nation of Israel they did so with the greatest care and respect for YAHSHUA and the precedent HE set for shepherding and discipleship. This model is the organization model of the nicolaitans. That’s right these are the same nicolaitans YAHSHUA talked about in Revelation! Revelation 2:4-6 tells the Ephesian fellowship, ” But I have this one thing against you. You do not love Me as you did at first. 5 Remember how you once loved Me. Be sorry for your sin and love Me again as you did at first. If you do not, I will come to you and take your light out of its place. I will do this unless you are sorry for your sin and turn from it. 6 But you have this: You hate what the Nicolaitans do. I hate what they do also. 7 You have ears! Then listen to what the Spirit says to the churches. I will give the fruit of the tree of life in the garden of God to everyone who has power and wins.” Later in that same chapter YAHSHUA tells the fellowship at Pergamum about both the nicolaitan and spirit of Balaam. Revelation 2:14-17 HE says, “But I have a few things against you. You have some people who follow the teaching of Balaam. He taught Balak to set a trap for the Jews. He taught them to eat food that had been given as a gift in worship to false gods and to do sex sins. 15 You also have some who follow the teaching of the Nicolaitans in the same way. 16 Be sorry for your sins and turn from them. If you do not, I will come to you right away. I will fight against them with the sword of My mouth. 17 You have ears! Then listen to what the Spirit says to the churches. I will give the hidden bread from heaven to everyone who has power and wins. I will give each of them a white stone also. A new name will be written on it. No one will know the name except the one who receives it!” We will handle the spirit of Balaam a little later but below is another more simplified model of the nicolaitans. Even if your bishop, pastor or whatever your fellowships’, congregations’ or churches’ leader is called, if this is the model that they follow, it is a perversion and an aberration! It is ungodly, unholy and YAHSHUA hates this system because NO ONE CAN COME TO THE FATHER BUT THROUGH HIM!!!!!

You should know that one of the reasons why this corrupt system of leadership is so hated is because the popes, bishops, rabbis. priests and pastors want to assume the position of “God on earth”. The position of the pope is even distinguished particularly as the “vicar” or authority of God on earth which means that this men believe and are taught in their seminaries is that they speak for God and in order for you, the laity to properly know God, you must come through them. These popes, bishops, pastors and even rabbis believe that their word supersedes that of YAHWEH ALMIGHTY. They believe and would have you believe that they have been given authority that is of greater weight than that of Scripture. They can and often do call themselves overriding Scripture so that they can have free reign to exploit and violate gullible and naive Believers. They do not want their authority challenged and they do not want to work in cooperation with the entire congregation. Most of the leaders of such a model don’t even truly encourage the “laity” to search the Scriptures for themselves and to test everything to be sure that it is approved by God. Because if you do, you’ll see that these people are counterfeits who have NOT been called by YAH and are being used by satan to deceive, distract and deter as well as destroy as many people as possible. These leaders are content to take on an idolatrous image and persona in the hearts and minds of the “laity” so that they can manipulate, violate and exploit the vulnerabilities of YAHWEH’s precious sheep. They lord over the people, pimp the people, fleece them and then tell them that it is because they have no faith that they are suffering. And ironically enough they are right! If the “laity” would be as diligent as the Bereans who were not afraid to test everything they would realize that they were first of all NEVER meant to be laity and secondly, they would understand that many of the doctrines that they are being taught over the pulpit are NOT and have NEVER BEEN endorsed by YAHWEH and are therefore unbiblical and offense to HIM!!!  If they, the “laity” truly sought the heart of YAHWEH for themselves, they would not be so easily deceived and manipulated by people who claim to represent God but don’t have a heart for HIS people. And if you don’t have a true love for YAH’s people then you are NOT representing HIM because you are standing in the way of them knowing YAHWEH for themselves! Because the “laity” are thought by these leaders to be too stupid and uncouth to truly know YAHWEH for themselves, the pastor is no longer a shepherd who loves and cares for the sheep but he/she sees them as prey. They don’t realize that while they are NOT the owner of the sheep, they ARE the steward and because they have been entrusted as a steward of YAH’s sheep, they can not live lavishly at the expense of YAH’s people, neither are they to rebuke questions of doctrine that the congregation may have legitimate need to question nor should they intimidate and confine Believers to their church, ministry or religious organization.

Please do not misunderstand, I am by no means implying that YAH’s people should be without leadership but leadership IS NOT EVER meant to take the place of YAHSHUA as mediator! Leadership in the church exists to lead by example, first and foremost and then teach, disciple, preach and then send forth the properly discipled sheep to disciple others. THEY DO NOT HOLD THEM CAPTIVE AND FORBID THEM TO SEEK YAHWEH FOR THEMSELVES! They DO NOT stifle the growth of the sheep because the ignorance of the sheep means that they will be all the more dependent on the leadership and not YAHWEH! If your pastor, bishop or whatever is possessive of the sheep and subversive in terms of true discipleship and ministerial outreach to the surrounding community then your church, congregation or fellowship IS NOT WHAT YAHWEH INTENDED. Believers are not called to yield blind obsequiousness to people, mere men (or women) who are perverting the Truth of the YAH’s Word to subjugate the people and enslave them to a building and/or an organization. This kind of “leadership” is the polar opposite of EVERYTHING YAHWEH desires for HIS people: freedom, love, and obedience to HIM AND HIM ALONE!! Most of these people who are in leadership in the modern church are full of the Jezebel spirit (and please understand that this is a SPIRIT so it does not possess a gender and is just as likely to inhabit a man as a woman); this spirit seeks to control by means of witchcraft (manipulation), subversion and intimidation; the spirit of Balaam, will pimp their gifts for a title and position. These people will even attempt to curse YAH’S people if it means that they can gain favor with ungodly people in high places. They attempt to curse them by provoking them to idolatry, leading them astray into carnal, pseudo-religious concepts and ways that are not scriptural and that furthermore undermine a Believer’s direct relationship with YAHWEH. This is happening everyday especially in the western church and people know that something is wrong but for centuries they have been told that this is the way because although you may not be the member of the catholic church if your church, etc is not following scripture and the model of the first church in Acts; if they believe that they are christians and not of Israel, if they subscribe to the heresy of replacement theology (as refuted by the Apostle Shaul “Paul” in Romans 11:11-21), if they are adhering to the catholic model of leadership they are simply just another protestant church and with that they are just another “daughter” of the catholic church whether they think they are or not!

We as Believers, must re-examine what we believe and this examination must come from a fresh evaluation of ALL of Scripture that includes the insight of the Ruach haQodesh so that we can rightly divide the Word of Truth (II Timothy 2:15) so that we needn’t be ashamed to question “leadership” that holds a position and a title but doesn’t reflect the proper, loving and sound stewardship of a godly shepherd. Any church, congregation or fellowship that denies the deity of YAHSHUA as the son of YAHWEH is not of HIM;  if they deny the Torah that YAHSHUA preached and taught as well as that of HIS disciples and the apostles of the early church, then they are NOT of YAHWEH; if they preach as if the so-called Old Testament is archaic and of no value to you as a Believer then they are NOT of YAHWEH; if they refuse to celebrate YAH’s feasts or HIS Sabbath but the celebrate the pagan sun festivals of christmas and easter and worship on the Constantine ordained day of worship on Sunday, they are NOT of YAHWEH and they have denied the faith and are leaving you vulnerable to spirits of witchcraft, sorcery and other foul demonic forces that YAHWEH is no longer winking at! There has to be a change and the change must adhere to ALL of Scripture otherwise it is nothing more than the recycled hybrid pagan religion of the catholic church! The first church had all things in common; they were diverse Messianic congregations where there were no big “I’s” and little “u’s”. The apostles of that day didn’t just wear a title or hold a position to be lauded and validated by people, they actually traveled, taught and preached Scripture and seeded other fellowships and congregations and DISCIPLED other Believers. Prophets lived and prophesied according to Torah and if it didn’t line up with Scripture they never spoke it and they never pimped the prophetic gift for profit. Ministers didn’t just minister to the four walls of their respective church or denomination. Pastors understood that they were shepherds who were entrusted with the everyday task of maintaining the flock and making sure that their needs, spiritually and naturally, were met. There were no huge mega-churches filled with people struggling to get by because those who were well off shared everything they had to make sure that everyone had what they needed. It wasn’t a utopia as the Apostle Shaul “Paul” wrote epistles referring to Torah and the Prophets consistently that they might understand fully what Father YAHWEH expected of them. As time drew on, these original Messianic Believers were persecuted, most of them even to death and before long Constantine, the Roman Catholic church took on the facade of YAHSHUA, changed HIS name to Jesus and set out to oppose and deny everything about HIS Jewish/Hebraic heritage. Practically all of the so-called church “fathers” of both the catholic and protestant churches were horribly, hateful anti-semites. So understand that it is to the advantage of the nicolaitan church that you do not know the truth and even more to their advantage that you feed into one of their many apostate or heretical denominations or “faiths”.

Know that YAHWEH loves you and that you mean more to HIM than any other aspect of HIS creation. HE wants you to know HIM personally and not through anyone else other than HIS only begotten son, YAHSHUA. Please take time to comprehensively read the Bible don’t settle for someone else’s regurgitated concept of who God is, get to know HIM for yourself.  God and LORD are titles ascribed to HIM by men who didn’t feel that you were worthy enough to know HIM by name, but the name of your HEAVENLY Father is, YAHWEH! My prayer is that you will come into a direct saving knowledge of who HE is so that you will feel comfortable enough to make HIS name and HIS Word famous!!!

For the weapons of our warfare are not carnal, but mighty through God to the pulling down of strong holds II Corinthians 10:4

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